I want it to work, but it doesn't...

I'm alone at home. You know how much I hate being alone at home. So, just being me again, I decided to read through a pile of old e-mails, starting on the 6th of March, 2005... and it is beautiful, being able to see how much we have grown and changed. Even if that growth and those changes have drifted us apart, I will always remember you, NO MATTER WHAT, as one of the most important people in my life.
It's got nothing to do with being over you, really... it's just keeping my word... I said I will love you forever, even if you were in Singapore, and I will... I want to keep that promise... Because I have to be true to myself... It hurts, still... I will admit it... it hurts badly... But I have moved on.
There are wounds that never close, that never completely heal... but it's like having a tatoo on my skin to remind me of us... of what we were, of how we started, of those conversations on MSN when you were abroad, on those e-mails full of hope, on the mistakes made, on the fighting, on the crying...
I meant it, I will love you forever... just like the song... It would help my therapy if I walked away a little while, like 70 years or so...
I miss you, for real... I just do... but not in the same way...

Take care, and stay in touch...

Peace Out!